loves,heart and mind

I'm Alone

2010-04-02T22:18:00.003+08:00

I love my new friends.
it's been more than a year since you guys saw me with a Girl.
You guys are right...
DOn't get me wrong i love you guys but i feel so insecure. sometimes i think about my old friends how much i miss them. Then they let me be remimded of why i left them in the First Place.
I know that i've not been myself lately but what can one say?
I miss Female Companionship but it's my fault too for cheating/Flirting/leaving her alone.
I'm so sorry.
Now i guess i am getting retribution.
Good news. On the time that i turn 18 or 21 depends on the Government.
My Name will Officially be Muhd Mikael Bin Abdullah.
anyway, this will most probaably be my last post. not like there's any readers left anyway.
Bye People..

Happy nEw year guys

2010-01-04T13:17:00.003+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR
Well people.
I've set my new year's resolution, i hope you've set yours too.
anyway, Out with the Old in with the new.

Congrats Dina on your new found LOVE.

i hate to admit it.... but.... Gan Eng Seng School grew on me...
I miss going to school.
Can't beleive i am actually crying of memories.

I miss you guys!!
Onward to our future.
I love you Rudi, Kamarul, Farhan and Qamarul!!!
NOT to Mention 4B'09
Take Care Buddies.

I'm chasing my dream.
You guys Chase yours too.

Great year ahead People.
2010.
Happy day readers.
Farewell. =)

ACS

2009-12-20T18:37:00.003+08:00

Now my former-ACS school mates.
not all of us are born rich, smart or gifted.
I'd like to say. i thought i would be sad to be a ACS reject, but i have to say i am pretty happy i never turn out to be like you guys. STUCKED-UP
basically i woul like to reply what you said...
you said: 'it is sad seeing people live in denail when they know they've failed'
now i reply...
"FUCK YOU"
you said again...
'don't you wish all of hopless people were to die'
I now reply on the behalf of my friends...
"FUCK YOU!"
now to answer all of your questions...
YES! i lost my FUCKING mind.

PROM

2009-11-23T04:36:00.006+08:00

Food was'nt that nice.

Me and Syuaidah

I don't do tagboards anymore honey =)

2009-11-04T01:07:00.003+08:00

I'm back after a while..
Sorry.
i have removed my tag-board and allowed it to be Viewed by public =)
Basically...
I like having an audience.
hahhahah =)
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Why isn't there a girl in Singapore..
I'm looking for a girl who can go have a fine-dining with me.
I wear a suit she wears a dress.
Perhaps an Americian??
hahaha!!
well feels great typing again.
Take Care to all my readers =)

I'm Diffrent.

2009-10-14T00:03:00.001+08:00

I'm diffrent physically and Mentally.
I am unique but scary.
I have given up on my love life.
Maybe someone will walk-by and save me..

Fatima

2009-10-10T23:55:00.002+08:00

TO FATIMA
THANKS!

for my reason of conversion

2009-10-03T13:29:00.002+08:00

My conversion was nt for the reason of my friends.
as most people know..
i used to believe in christianity, but as i studied Islam a few years ago, i got to the chapter of Maryam(PBUH) and i got to know the true story of Jesus who is known as Nabi Isa(PBUH) to Muslim's.
As i studied deeper i relised that all the Prophet's of Islam were the same as the Christian's.
Beside's Nabi Muhammad(PBUH)
i don't seek acceptance from the people who hate me.
As long as forgiving Allah has accepted me.
that is more than enough.
Alhamdullilah.
i have true friend's.
thanks Irfan, Dina and Dan.
Peace Be Upon all off you.

Ain!!!!!

2009-09-26T20:06:00.002+08:00

Me, Rudi and Qamarul.
we were like joking arund with Ain.
1st Rudi said: Sayang..
2nd i said: sayang? dia isteri aku tau..
3rd Qamarul said: Sayang! you main timer i?
haha..
then we were all pretending to be fighting, untill i shouted.
Sabar!!!
i then said: who do you want? me. a good, nice sweet husband? or them?
Ain said: i won't choose you!
Me: Why?!
Ain: no matter how nice or sexy you look... you lie to girls.
Me: what?! no i don't.. Wait... ya.. i guess i do...
Ain: you think? how many girls you broke?
Me: Well errrrm... Change the subject???
Rudi and Qamarul: HAHAHHAHAHAHHA!!!
Happy reading.. My Embaressment your entertainment.
READERS.

I hate YOU!!! ALL OF YOU!!!!!!

2009-09-23T01:16:00.002+08:00

To the Express of GESS sec 4.
i will have my time where i give you what's yours!
After my 'N'..
Regardless of Gender.. i will do it.
Gossip and hate..
you all don't even know me, what gives you the right to judge me?!
yeah!
i got public caning!
Yes
i'm a defiant Asshole!!
Yes!
i repremanded both the Principle and the Vice!
And yes!!!
I got SUSPENDED with a Police Case!!
I admit!
i ain't the Nicest or brightest person..
But..
what makes you judge me?
i won't stoop to your level..
you know what?!
i won't do anything at all.
Enmity begats more Enmity.
i won't stoop to your level..
Express=Arrogant=Jugdmental=hate
You know you fear me..
but..
Please don't.
I want to be liked not FEARED!!

2009-09-21T23:21:00.002+08:00

Went for hari raya on 1st day yesterday.

photos will be uploaded ltr when i get my USB cable.

all was wearing white but me, i wore red.

papa: tgok. sumer pakai putih cumer Nizam, Independent. pakai merah.

aku: -_-

haha.

Talk..

2009-09-20T00:38:00.002+08:00

Mr. Lee: Nigel i heard you converted. is it true?
Me: Yes.
Mr. Lee: So are you happy?
Me: ofcourse.
Mr. Lee: good. so what's your name?
Me: Muhd Nizam
Mr. Lee: ohhhh..
Me: call me Nigel =)
Mr. Lee: haha. I'm used to Nigel better.
Me: sooo teachers talk about me usally?
Mr. Lee: haha. you are more famous than anyone in singapore when it comes to you in GESS.
Me: haha!!

Selamat Hari raya Maaf Zahir dan Batin

2009-09-19T19:09:00.002+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya
Maaf Zahir dan Batin
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to:
Ahw
-Rio Izham
-Izdi
-Irfan Miko
-Hadi
- Afiq
- Naz
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GESS
-Rudi
-Farhan
-Qamarul
-Kamarul (MC)
-Khairul
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Dear Friends
-Dina Amalina
-Hidayah
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done

2009-09-17T23:30:00.002+08:00

Well i've got to say the dentist really hurt me bad ='(
after the thing, he said to me.
Denstist: you want a ice-cream
Me: No.
Dentist: why not? it's free.
Me: i'm fasting.
dentist: ohhhh.. what a nice boy.
Me: don't patronize me -_-
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Implants!!!

2009-09-17T06:12:00.002+08:00

well i'm gonna get my tooth implants..
In exactly 10 hours from now..
Not that i need it..
I want it.
whoever i'm visting for hari raya will see my new teeth.
haha.
that means you dina and izham.
haha.
Actually a whole lot more of people will see it.
So don't be shocked!!!
haha.
well feeling alittle scared now.
haha.

funny.

2009-09-15T14:52:00.002+08:00

Today...
After 'N'..
Me, farhan, Qamarul and Afiq was leaving school.
farhan was drinking winter melon or something..
then he said to me...
Hold this..
I held it..
while passing by the sceuruity booth
farhan shouted...
Cik tgok Nigel!!!
Tak puase!!!
I was like...
EH!!! EH!!! tak cik!!! Bukan air saya, Air dia CIK!!!
then Qamarul (yes dina... your evil brother...) -_-
Afiq and Khairul..
Ohhhhhhhhhhhh~~~
Cik.. Nigel tak puase.. Ohhhhhh~~~
i went to salam him the rest followed suit..
end of story.
well it could be longer.. but my eyes are really getting blur.
Sorry!!!

MALU!!!!!!!!!

2009-09-14T17:09:00.002+08:00

I was in the train chewing a sweet (tak puase)
but i did'nt care cause people would'nt care. (Cause i'm white) -_-
Untill...
Rudi called..
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Rudi:Hello! kau kat maner?!
Me: Sabar aku tak dgr...
Rudi:hello!
Me: ye...
Rudi: kau kat maner???!
me: kat dlm train... commonwealth.
Rudi: kk. Cepat taw!
Me: ye...
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when i hanged up i relised there was a mak cik infront of me...
and i was still chewing... but now i just swallowed it down..
when i reached Redhill i noticed she was still looking at me..
then i looked down...
In my head i was saying 'Mak!'
A Certain Ayat i carry with me always. (except when i go to the toilet)
slipped out of my side pocket on the screen of my phne...
at this piont of time, i was like... 'mampose....'
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When i got off a tiong bahru stood up, slip it in to my pocket s~l~o~w~l~y.
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i told Rudi the story...
He laughed -_-
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Cheers readers =)

A punch to the Christians

2009-09-12T23:21:00.002+08:00

How'd my fist felt in your face?
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i know what i did was wrong and uncalled for but you asked for it.
you sprinkle your holy water on me 1 more time i swear i'll not only give you 1 punch.
call me a terrorist..
I kick your ass..
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Save the wolves!!!

2009-09-12T04:46:00.003+08:00

I love wolves.
I can't stand Americians setting a kill limit for wolves, permit to kill wolves on sight..
WTF!!!
leave the wolves be.
be nice. or else...

Geylang.

2009-09-12T00:15:00.002+08:00

Went to geylang to Buke with Dan and Nadia.
after that went to hunt for Baju Kurungs.
Mine was sooo hard to find -_-
In the end..
I GOT IT!!!
need to buy another samping though, tore mine by accident while climbing up a fence with friends last year..
damn..
can't wait to see my mummy and daddy again. (foster)

Broke my door!!!

2009-09-09T12:39:00.001+08:00

i Forgot to bring my key out yesterday.
When i reach my hse it was like soooo hot..
I lost my mind..
and..
i broke my door..
by kicking it 4 times..
now i don't know how to explain to my mum when she gets back..
Ohhhhhhhhh....

'N' Level

2009-09-08T05:47:00.002+08:00

Well 'N' level officially started Yesterday..
great...
My mum is going to Thailand for a bussiness thingy.
My brother is going to Boy's town...
I'm going to be alone..
Just F**king Great..
i love my life...
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apart form the bad news..
is Me, Rudi and Qamarul have agreed to do something for the Sec 4's
Be it Express or Normal Tech.
But it's still in the hands of the new Principal..
God..
i hate her...
stupid B***h send me to a Phychologist..
she thinks i have Uncontrolable rage and a little coco up my head..
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Ohhhhhhhh...
i'm living my life...

Cheer up Both of you =)

2009-09-05T23:11:00.003+08:00

Dina,
Cheer up.
Whatever that's bothering you.
i know i'm in no place to advice you but.. well i look up to you..
i mean you really are my guidiance.
without you i have no one to... well be my role model.
For what's it's worth Dina...
I care for you as much as you care for me or any of your dear close friends.
Cheer up =)
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Hidayah,
Don't you let yourself or anyone in this rotten world put you down.
you're really a niiice girl.
I can put myself down cause i ain't worth shit.
but you are special, to alot of people.
so don't put yourself down.
and thanks.
Cheer up =)
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Great Idea

2009-09-05T02:44:00.002+08:00

I GOT A PLAN!!!
i got an Idea that will blow the whole of Sec 4's away On prom!
Ofcourse i would need the help of Rudi and Qamarul.
Regarding this we will dicuss on Monday.
woooohooooooo!!!
No clues will be given, no one will know!
ofcourse on prom night itself Gessian will know...
lame siak Nigel...
haha.
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Questions should be answered...

2009-08-30T15:49:00.002+08:00

Wanna ask but it might ruin our friendship.
Love you but i know myself it would never be..
How it would be fine if you were mine..
admiring afar is only possible for me...
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Hmm.. not bad..
i can be a damn writer..
i just wrote everything that came out of my head.
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This is something i dedicate to someone.
Pour your heart out girl.
I've never in my life went gaga over a girl like this before.
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Tak akan maafkan kau

2009-08-29T23:27:00.002+08:00

As i said before..
i won't fogive you.
i noticed you in the bus i did'nt say anything as you walked by me you kept staring at me..
i don't want your promise...
i don't want anything from you.
the thing is i want to be my own person..

i'm sorry but i won't be taken in by any girl anymore*

*but ofcourse the girl i only love is.....

only known by Rudi.

read to bottom

2009-08-28T23:06:00.005+08:00

Cbox and blogspot is giving me problems... Again..
woooo...
In 1 week time 'N' Begins..
Time to study like i've nvr studied before!!!
Going to pass with flying colours (apart from maths)
Time to leave Secondary soon..
Will miss school..
Hopefully no one in ITE will think i'm a Tyrant.
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Dina,
well i did kinda copyright some stuff from you..
well you ain't mad or anything.
Are you?
haha.
The video was Hilarious though.
hahaha.
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Rudi,
Finally kau dapat carik blog aku.
P.s
Sry psl tadi aku sampai kat Masjid lambat
Tapi aku Sembahyang!!!
ade jer kau suspect tak.
haha.
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Abu Hurairah (ra) narrated that the Prophet (saw) said,"Whoever did not fast one day of Ramadhan without a genuine excuse or a disease (genuine illness that prevents one from fasting) then even if he fasted for a complete year, it would not compensate for that (missed Ramadhan) day." [Saheeh Bukhari]

My dad

2009-08-27T22:28:00.002+08:00

I just talked to my dad...
It's been quite afew years since i seen him..
I hated him with my whole heart..
But as we talked.. I relised how burden was his heart...
I relised how wrng i have become....
I am not a good son..
As much as he hurt me Physically or mentally
I just relised it's not him i hate...
it's myself...
i would'nt have turned out this way...
I just want a second chance...
to change..
i am a Failure..
I relised my father was and has always been the best in me..
As much as i no longer talk to him..
I still love him deep down in my heart..

Oh yeah...

2009-08-25T23:06:00.001+08:00

Bertekad Untuk Berubah
Translation.
Determined to changed

How i am..

2009-08-25T22:43:00.000+08:00

I am a damn evil kid man...

Made it!!

2009-08-24T02:37:00.002+08:00

2nd day of Ramadhan.
I was sleeping till 6 on purpose.
So i would'nt felt temptation.
Wooooo...
i made it!!!
hahaha =D
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anyway i was bloghopping when i saw a link .
well actually not a link.
i had to copy and paste it.
The video was soooo damn funny.
Related to cookies and people putting it in their mouths.
i was laughing non-stop.
haha!
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First day of Ramadhan

2009-08-22T23:07:00.002+08:00

Today was the first day of fasting.
i woke up at 4 to pray,eat and drink (water!)
when Farhan called me.
Farhan: Hello? Can i speak to Nigel
Me:Ye.. Ni aku..
farhan: Eh! Assalamualaikum bro!
Me: Walaikumsalam.
Farhan: kau tak makan?
Me: Dah.
Farhan: Semalam kau pergi maner? Siangnye kau balik.
Me: Tak uh.. Aku Semalam balik makan, tidur jap, mandi pergi Sembahyang.
Farhan: Oh... Dgn?
Me: Sorng.. aku terserempak Faris kat Masjid.
Farhan: ohhhh.
Me: aku gi tidur dulu.. Pernat.
Farhan: Kk. Selemat berpuase! Take Care bro!
Me: take Care =)
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Today met up with Izham at 1++
We went to orchad weak.. Thirsty..
And we saw a couple of muslim not fasting.
Irfan:Afstagfirralazim!..
Me: Jgn ckap gitu la..
Izham: don't bother sudah..
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Izham Words..
Taught me something new..
During the 1st Ramadhan.
Those who Fast did'nt blame those who did'nt.
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To all Muslims

Selemat berpuase

TODAY

2009-08-21T23:36:00.002+08:00

Today was alittle diff from my normal day.
i woked up, took a shower.
when i'm about to leave my house a uncle was going door-to-door selling biscuits.
Uncle: Helloooo... Helloooo.
Me:(sticking my head out)
Uncle:Assalamualaikum. Abang bleh tolong beli keropok?
Me:Walaikumsalam.
In my mind i was like how does he know that i could speak malay or even a Muslim...
Me: bleh =)
Bought it...
Went out...
NO $$$$
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Went out at night to pray like 8 times.
after praying...
i thought to myself...
"Tahun ni puase full"
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I'm gonna do it...

I'm Stressed!

2009-08-20T22:51:00.002+08:00

I am really tired..
Studying, drinking Coffee in the Morning and Getting such short time to sleep...
I gotta stop on the Coffee...
Well actually i will... on saturday 21st.

Final Prelims tmrw and i'm continueing to be SUSPENDED...
Quite a relief...
I need to REST a.s.a.p

I'm going...
M.I.A

Well death...

2009-08-17T23:59:00.003+08:00

From Ashes to Ashes, dust to dust.
From soil we were created to soil we shall become.

From him we came, to him we shall return.

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When i got the news of the death of Amirik.
it saddened me, despite we were'nt close.
He was young, that's what's bothering me.
he died young...
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Amirik is a Beloved son, brother and a fellow ex-Gessian.
he was filal to his mother, working for his family.
He had alot of plan for his future but none came to be.

Amrik...
May you find peace.
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we will all pass on one day.
PEACE BE UPON US
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Heya heya heaya!

2009-08-16T06:41:00.002+08:00

I'm back, i'm happy and having a slight fever -_-
Well i ain't really feeling great...
1) i lost my phne quite awhile alrd.
2)i just seem sooo weak.
3)Prelims are tmrw..
Stress...
hai!
can really use a tutor right now...
Well..
that's it =)

the future!

2009-08-12T06:45:00.002+08:00

(Rudi is loved)

(i am president of USA)

(I'm cash)

(Paris Hilton promoting my CD)

What a dream =)

SEE anything??

2009-08-12T01:03:00.000+08:00

Girls will be pissed
guys just simply enjoy this.

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Sick!!

2009-08-10T22:09:00.002+08:00

Went to the doctor's today.
Burning up to a 39.9
doctor made jokes bout how a egg can fry on my forehead.
I was like...
"Shut the hell up and do your job"
he was saying "sorry"
then he said i think you should go to a hospital.
i said "gimme my medicine, i pay you.."
he said "chill"
i said "i'm in no mood!"
i'm there feeling like i wanna vomit
he's there smiling.
I hate Doctors...
If he gives me fake medincine, i'll kill him myself man..
Chey!
haha.
oooohhh my headache...
that's it i'm going to sleep..

Nights readers =)

World

2009-08-10T16:33:00.002+08:00

The world is so amazing yet full of hate and pain.
If only the world was without an end.
but still...
The end of the world is near...
As i keep thinking and thinking
What's gonna happen when i die?
i know what's gonna happen but i mean...

PEACE BE UPON US

..

2009-08-08T14:05:00.003+08:00

I'm gonna restrict my blog to some people only.
sooo give me your E-mail and i'll put you as readers. (selected only).
DONE
[Dina,Hidayah,Irfan and Irfan]

ZYE,
Bilang aku kau nye E-mail kat Hotmail (instant msg).
lucian.

4B'09

2009-08-08T13:58:00.002+08:00

Holidays

2009-08-02T18:24:00.002+08:00

I miss you guys during the holidays...
Coming to meet everyday, Playing takraw every night.
Eating together and playing together.
I just wish my life would be that simple.
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I'd like to thank this guys for showing me a great time on my birthday and the holidays.
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Izham (GESS) (Closest to me)
Danial (GESS) (Dear to me)
Irfan (CTSS) (nice to me)
Izdi (QSS) (Irritating to me.. but i still love him)
Astro
Dyla
naz
jill
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MISS YOU GUYS.

TODAY...

2009-08-01T02:08:00.005+08:00

What wrong i did is STRICTLY CONFIDENTIAL TO RUDI.

I went to pray and seeked forgiveness...

Ltr tnga lepak..

as i confess to Rudi for what i did...

He Punch me..

then..

A kick.

OUCH!

Rudi:takde keje laen?!

aku: *diam*

Rudi: Kau jgn nak buat keje budoh ni sumer bleh tak?!

aku:*diam*

Rudi: Bukan aku nak merah.. Tapi the thing is kau kawan aku siaK..

Apa jadi kat aku, aku bilang kau, aku yang jadi kat kau, kau bilang aku..

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There's More but it's CONFIDENTIAL!
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Sumpa Demi ALLAH

aku tak merah...

i know you guys Just Care For Me.

Alhamdullilah aku dapat kawan baek mcm krng!

(Rudi dgn Farhan)

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This is Rudi!
he's been a real friend in my whole 2 yrs with him.
thanks!

Harry Potter

2009-07-30T05:21:00.002+08:00

Just watched Harry Potter today at Farhan's house.
GREAT!
Harry killed that damn Malfoy!
unfotunately...
That severus... Revived Malfoy...
I was shouting vulgar...
nasib takde orng kat rumah, klau tidak... Kena dgn nek..
haha!
what made me sooo sad is....
Dumbledore died...
Severus... SOB!
killed Dumbledore without thinking!

Dumbledore: Please... (Face sadden)
Severus: (without hesitation) AVADA KADAVA!
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GERAMnye AKU!
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Farhan: Chill uh. Wayang jer...
Aku: Wayang tak wayang, Kersian siak Dumbledore (tgna ngis)
Farhan: kau ngis per?!
Aku: Takde la.. dust in my eye..
Farhan: Dust kepale hotak kau!
Aku: Dust la!
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LOL!

Must seek forgiveness

2009-07-30T00:16:00.002+08:00

MUST PRAY FOR FORGIVENESS WITH A PURE HEART AND MAY HE FORGIVE ME.

Friendship over Relationship

2009-07-28T22:45:00.002+08:00

Well tonight...
After talking to my "older sis"
i learnt something new without her realising
I learnt something new.
Friendship over relationship.
Because Love Conquers all!
the LOVE of friendship there's much more happiness =)
In the Relationship there's Fights, betrayal and Saddness
But also if friends the downside is see her/him with another...
it kills you inside...
but i'm over it.
Does'nt mean i can't be happy, she can't be happy.

Surely.
No one in this world is this selfish to take someone else happiness.
If you feel you keep getting heart broken, take my word for it...
Stay single, work on your studies.
Get a better future
Befriend your love one.

'N' Level

2009-07-23T23:35:00.002+08:00

Finally 'N' Level coursework is almost done!
EBS
CPA..
Next..
hai..
Gonna be a stressful year!
arrr.... Damn it
I'm sooo gonna Flunk EBS..
Shit.. soooo should have studied..
CPA?
Worse... Worse... Worse...
Grandpa...
I love you.. pls don't go yet, it's not your time..
it's not...
i will study hard!
i'll stop my nonsense!
please just stay longer...
i want you to see me grow up please...
please...

C'mon GUYS WE CAN DO IT!

2009-07-19T20:28:00.002+08:00

C'mon Guys we can do it!
We just need to practice more!
I need to gat my timing right.
Stupid Izdi!
canceled our practice cause of you GRRRRR....
haha!
stupid habit.
But Izdi!
we need you.
ok?
Sooo please.. This band thing won't work without you.
soooo Yeah.
help us out.
Peace.

Art of me.

2009-07-12T03:49:00.005+08:00

(i like this side of my hair!=D)

(Love my Sideburns)

(this is just plain Faiz)

(Damn! this pose is like Micheal Jackson!)

(call me Don Nigelo!)

Lol!

just nothing better to do.

haha!

cheers readerz!

Megan Fox

2009-07-12T03:11:00.004+08:00

I don't know why i'm doing this but Megan Fox..

Is sooooo hot Even for a Guy.

Even if She's a guy..

I kinda respect her, not many stars can tell the truth with the courage like her.

Straight or Gay?

whatever the hell.

She's Hotter than alot of pure ladies.

Perfomance of ChEEzE

2009-07-11T00:39:00.004+08:00

Well today i went to meet up with Izham and hadi and 2 other friends.
I woke up and i was like..
"i am sooo lazy"
went to shower after reading the tons of msges i got.
After showering.. i went to dress up in my suit

damn.. as good as i may look in this suit.. It's sooo uncomfortable.
Seriously..
haha.
Met up with Hadi
saw ZaZa again..
Hmmm.. nampak ZaZa.. dia mcm lagi pendek
haha!

met up with Izham and went to Singapore Poly

then it Hit me!

This is where i got Dina's number..

haha!

Old story!
Anws nice performance IzdI!
=)

Susarnye untuk hubby nak lepaskan wifey..

2009-07-04T01:18:00.002+08:00

It's hard and painful for me to let you go..
but..
I LOVE YOU...
I want you to follow your heart.
I want you to be happy =)
Unfortunately...
for you to be happy.. I've to let you go.
I know you love me just as much as i do.
I'm just happy for that =)
Whatever happens i'm there to break your fall.
I'll be praying for your happiness.
Insha' Allah both of us will eventually break out of this pain.
P.S
I'm sorry i made you cried.
I've never regreted contacting you.
Keep smiling Yeah?
"We'll always be a hubby and Wifey"
=)

=) our 1st Date

2009-06-27T17:06:00.002+08:00

It was fun the whole day, but only got 1 pic to show

Showing Below.

May our love last till the end of time Wifey <3

Never will i hurt you =)

I'm your sweet lil' Guy.

I'm your love

and...

I'm your Hubby

You are my One

You are my Heart

You are my Love

and

My Wifey =)

i'm happy finally =D truly

2009-06-22T01:08:00.003+08:00

My wifey =)
you made me smile unlike any other.
i truly never will break our trust.
we kept each other company till soooo late.
i kept saying "gi tidur"
you kept saying 5mins over and over
haha!
i'm truly finding you unique, my wish came true =)
Thank you Wifey =)

Sweeeeeeeeeet post from the heart of shikin. thanks Shikin =) Cheerz!

2009-06-21T19:39:00.005+08:00

oh this is nigel. He's a chinese muslim. I kinda respect him for one thing in particular which is this, read on the bold wordings:
Please eh, he even know how to say the before food prayers clearly and loudly and i don't understand why us, pure muslim, can't even say our prayers before enjoying our meals. damn! Makan kau ngan setan - common sentence used by our parents.
Be freaking jealous because i know you find this picture, pointing below, is so nicely captured. Damn! i wished i had brought along my DSLR. knncb.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!!!!!!

2009-06-15T14:20:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEEE!!!!!!!!!
my birthday celebration was fun, but seeing my friends with their girls..
sitting together on the beach, playing in the water...
*sigh* another celebration spent alone...
I just wish i did ask you to come..
i'm such a prick..
thanks Naz for letting me to put up at your home for a long time..
and seph i'm sorry.
if you wanna be petty and go on being mad go ahead.
tell you the truth, you made ruined my celebration.
that's why i was sooo pissed!
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Chapter 2 west coast BBQ (12/06/09)
well i came late cause i was playing Tekken at clementi. Sorry NAZ.. Hehe =P
thanks for the invitation Nurr (Naz girl)
and met a new girl called her wifey.
Met 2 new kids.
met 1 Father -_-
well wifey,
missed you =)
dad you stink... -_- get some purfume or something
son.. remember what i thought you.
Adek! kurang ajar tipu dgn abang!
Naz.. Lil' bro.
Touch my wifey 1 more time i'll murder you!
haha!
Lol.

love letter

2009-06-12T23:46:00.000+08:00

got this from me dear BF Fyqa
Assalamualaikum =)
You will be happy that you read this all the way through!
As you got up this morning, I watched you, and hoped you would talk to me, even if it was just a few words, asking my opinion or thanking me for something good that happened in your life yesterday. But I noticed you were too busy, trying to find the right outfit to wear. When you ran around the house getting ready, I knew there would be a few minutes for you to stop and say hello, but you were too busy. At one point you had to wait, fifteen minutes with nothing to do except sit in a chair. Then I saw you spring to your feet. I thought you wanted to talk to me, but you ran to the phone and called a friend to get the latest gossip instead. I watched patiently all day long. With all your activities I guess you were too busy to say anything to me.
I noticed that before lunch you looked around, may be you felt embarrassed to talk to me, that is why you didn't bow your head. You glanced three or four tables over and you noticed some of your friends talking to me briefly before they ate, but you didn't. That's okay. There is still more time left, and I hope that you will talk to me yet. You went home and it seems as if you had lots of things to do. After a few of them were done, you turned on the TV. I don't know if you like TV or not, just about anything goes there and you spend lot of time each day in front of it not thinking about anything, just enjoying the show. I waited patiently again as you watched the TV and ate your meal, but again you didn't talk to me. Bedtime I guess you felt too tired. After you said good night to your family you popped into bed and fell asleep in no time. That's okay because you may not realize that I am always there for you. I've got patience, more than you will ever know. I even want to teach you how to be patient with others as well. I love you so much that I wait everyday for a nod, prayer or thought or a thankful part of your heart. It is hard to have a one-sided conversation. Well, you are getting up once again. And once again I will wait, with nothing but love for you. Hoping that today you will give me some time. Have a nice day! Your friend, ALLAH

Terserempak

2009-06-12T23:44:00.002+08:00

Just now i was with Irfan and Afiq.
tgna jln terserempak Sephia..
bilang aku nak jumpe mummy dia
btol ke? =)
haha..
kersian kaki sakit, haha!

Bored

2009-06-09T16:25:00.002+08:00

oh... i'm here in irfan's house..
Sooo bored.
wonder if i'll see you in school on thursday?
or maybe next tuesday...
hmmm...
miss ya sooo much that's for sure.
woooo...
damn son..
i never thoght i'd be this bored...
Maybe... i should read a book or something..
NAhhh!
hmmm...
well i could watch Americian pie 2 and learn how to get a band geek..
but i've watched it over over and over... hmmm..
damn man.. Irfan is really neat.
Thank god.
he turn on the air-con =)
hmmm...
well one things for sure...
I MISS EVERITHING BOUT YOU.
sooo short, soooo cute and always smiley =)
well that's it.
i've got nothing else to type.
KEEP SMILING READERS! =)

Turn over =)

2009-05-30T11:43:00.002+08:00

thank you Cikgu Asnor, Cikgu Siti dan Cikgu Nurliza =)
for teaching me patience and the rewards of it.
As i Promised i will take your advice =)

May Allah look over you 3.

Bullshit!

2009-05-15T01:32:00.002+08:00

dear Gessians,
on 14 may 2009 at Approx. 930am-13ooam
me,rudi and farhan had to go to school and attend a school meeting about us..
For what? it's confidential.
bottomline...
we might get Expeled...
As a GESSian speakin i hope not, i'm just left with 4 mths and i'm out...
I just wanna graduate..
Mdm Zahara cried for me and told me "you are like my son, i saw you grow up"
I could'nt take it and cried..
She is the 1st teacher that ever shed a tear or tears infront of me.
i respect her the most.

when i convert and become a good Muslim, i will know that she is one of the many that influcened me to be a good PERSON/MUSLIM!

may Allah look over her.

last letter.

2009-05-12T16:06:00.004+08:00

You Posted.
"I'm nothing so dominant in your life so just let the feelings go"
now i'm pin-pointing this phrase
"I'm nothing so dominant in your life"
Well the thing is indeed you were the most "dominant" person in my life.

Untill i fought my feelings to let you go..
you were ..
The thing you wanted me to do afew months back has been done.
letting you go..
i'm just soooo sorry to myself for being a prick and a sorry to you.
"i'm sorry"
this time i don't expect any forgiveness or any chance to talk, i guess i really lost you this time..

LAST letter to you babe..

yours truly,
Nigel

Thankful =)

2009-05-07T22:58:00.003+08:00

Wow!
i'm surprized!
thanks Dina
i'll always look up to you as a good role model.
thanks Lukeman
though we never were close, thanks for sticking up for me. APPRECIATED! =)
Passerby
i think i know who you are thanks!
thanks Aan!
you've always protected me!
Last but never the least Fyqaaa
you are truly my BF =)
Thanks to all beb!
my life is not sooooo bad after all.
thanks to you guys! =)
P.s
Thanks Farhan for giving me shelter when i've none
and i love your parents as much as they love me (though mama hits us in the head)
*ouch*
haha!
Once again thanks to ALL! =)

Remeber what i said nigel..

2009-05-03T20:18:00.003+08:00

Dina,
i'll remember what you say "it's all in the mind"
and don't be doing things to get you into more trouble..
Control your anger..

and i've red it alrd

dina: hey sarah! hmm. i dont mean to intervene, but let me step in for awhile. nigel, stop tagging. rmbr what i said. sarah, smile always, dear(:

Yes Dina...
i know..
i'll remember what you said..
thanks Sis.

Camp '09

2009-05-01T12:47:00.002+08:00

Looks like i won't be able to attend camp..
Having qualification match on 28,29 and 30 of May.
whether the school lets my come to camp or not i can't come...
Been training virgourously for this COMPETITION, i'm not gonna lose..
My GOALS
1) Prove to my trainers that i deserve to be in National team
2) Prove to Rudi that i stand a chance to defeat him at PSK!
3) Bring back a Medal for jurong Grasio and myself!
4) Show grandmaster Shiek that i'm not all that he thinks i am!
5) Make me PROUD of MYSELF!
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3 pesilats representing my side (including me)
3 all in diffrent classes
3 Goals!
and 3 medals to be brought BACK HOME!
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To other Grasio Sects:
We come in as Pesilats, we LIVE as pesilats, We FIGHT as Pesilats!
Whoever that i will face, whoever that will face me...
Let's keep the match clean with HONOUR!
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P.S
Sorry i can't attend camp...

SILAT SILAT SILAT

2009-04-30T23:23:00.002+08:00

Competition coming up..
MUST TRAIN HARD AND KICK THAT GUY WHO OFFENDED ME BUTT!
Whatever it takes i won't lose to him.
NEVER! NEVER! NEVER!
ARGH!
i won't bother about points, i'll use my own means to defeat him!

I did'nt put through all that HEAVY TRAINING for nothing..
I will devour him!

My friends!
" CHEER ME ON, CHEER ME ON, CHEER ME OOOOOOON! =)

BORED

2009-04-30T13:33:00.003+08:00

ARGGGH!
1st day on suspension and i'm so bored that i would'nt mind to get reprimanded by Mr.Kung
S.O.B got me suspended in the first place...
Pfft.. how he sickens me..
anyway.. i just hope that i'll be permitted to go to Camp, otherwise... i won't be the only one with agony... i'll drag the few people who got me into this trouble too.

P.S
The person who talked crap about me, why don't you make yourself known?
Chickenshit...

thanks to Nadia!

2009-04-26T00:39:00.002+08:00

Hi Nad,
this is for you!
Thanks for consuelling me about Sarah and my EMOTIONS and stop pressing my pimple for God's sake! Haiyo!
haha!
You were always a great friend!
=)

My unforgetable talk...

2009-04-25T21:38:00.002+08:00

Well i did try my best...
I expressed my fellings...
It did'nt work...
Firstly i'd like to thank Rudi and Farhan for helping me to have make that talk possible...
Secondly...
Sarah...
I'm such a dumb ass for not to have told you earlier, when my feelings developed for you at batam...
If not we might have gotten together in this 1 year 2 months old feeling i have for you...
1 year 2 months...
i wasted...
I'm such a dumbass...

A big stupid, asshole and a freaking underacheiver...
*Sigh*
My life...
I just want to end it...

Thanks rudi, farhan, din and dan

2009-04-24T21:57:00.004+08:00

Luckily you guys held me back...
otherwise i would have got expelled instead of suspension...
*phew*
Kung: What did i do to kena F from you and arun
Me: Chee bye! Arun F you then you let him off, I F you, you make me stay back KNN!
*My fist nearly hit his face when Rudi pulled me*
me(shouting): LEPASKAN AKU! LEPASKAN AKU
Rudi: SAPA LA!
Alhamdullilah!
krng ade!
haha!

Great performance, heart ache..

2009-04-11T11:02:00.000+08:00

Enough with the bad stuff and out with the good...
good news is that i performed great!
especially the audition part, (i made afew of my lines) haha =)

(E.g "the only thing that i'm guilty of is singing like an Angel"
"when we both that a talk outside i'll send you into ICU"(Intensive Care Unit) )

well only the people that came would understand the stuff i said!
Uhhhhhhhhhh! i so wanna perform again!
made afew people laugh and made them said "oooooooooohhhhhhhh..."

I'd like to thank the people that came and supported me and mostly i'd like to thank my
LUCKY
STAR
Sarah..
Sarah,
i don't know how long it will take for you to understand my feelings...
But i assure you that they are true...
PLEASE GIMME A CHANCE...
With Love,
Nigel

Disapointment

2009-04-10T23:47:00.000+08:00

I Gave you the ticket to my performance hoping you'd come without him(F*t*i).
reasonly is that i wanted to go out with you..
When i was down on the stage while shaking hands with teachers and EX-gessians(rly old)
I looked up and saw you walking with him..
As that point of time i was feeling DISAPOINTED
i walked to the backstage alone.. holding my feelings inside as not to affect my performance..
While i was at backstage i cried the hardest cry i ever did...
and fell weak to my legs..
my friends or as i regard them as brothers (Aan,Rudi,Qamarul,Thinesh and Fiqkri)
Came to console me...
as i felt better i walked down the stairs to the exit, i saw you with him...
and so i smoked my lungs out till i was coughing blood..
thought i could at least get a picture or two with you to just make my night alittle filled with stars..

I thank my brothers and the girl that comforted me on the phone..

Nigel a.k.a Lucian